WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TO MAKE YOU HAVE FAITH?
At church, we were asked to write something down that has happened to us to cause us to have faith! It really got me thinking about why my faith is so strong. I am completely broken person, but yet I have iron faith. It also made me realize that so much has happened to me to not have faith.
I have wanted to write this blog since I started blogging. However, I was told by someone to not write this blog, so I didn't write this specific one. I think it was for my best, that I didn't write this blog until now. I was mentally weaker back then. However, I was driving in the car today and felt the strong desire to blog again and to do this blog post. I don't blog just to blog. I only blog when I feel like I have something that is extremely important for at least one person to hear. I also only blog when I feel like it is coming from my heart.
So get ready to hear my story. Only people, who are extremely close to me or have been extremely close to me in the past know this.
What causes my faith to be strong?
Let's see I have talked about the many vehicles that I have been in while they were totaled, including a Mack truck smashing into my mustang, pushing me into a school bus and going half way through a house. Oh, by the way, I was stopped at a red light. I walked away from it. The drunk driver drag racing and smashing into the car that my friends and I were in. Oh, by the way, my eyes were open, but there are 20-24 hours that I can't remember at all, but I was talking. Yeah, call me crazy, but I think I took a little trip to heaven that day.
WHAT IS IT LIKE TO FEEL WORTHLESS, UNLOVED, HELPLESS
Now, let's see. What is it like when you feel worthless, so unloved and so helpless? So imperfect and useless! Oh yes, you would do anything to drown out the pain and to kill yourself. Has Kimfitnesschic ever been to that point? IF YOU ONLY KNEW, how many times I have felt that unloved, useless, helpless and worthless! So what do you do? You try to cheer yourself up! It doesn't always work. Many people love to kick others when they are down, rather than say oh my God, how can I help you up! I will help pick you up, even if it means I am bringing myself down with you! So what happened? Yep, I tried to kill myself every which way possible, even researched the most effective ways to kill myself! You are probably rolling your eyes and saying "oh my god", "i can't believe that she is sharing this" or "she only wants attention". NOPE! This was the old me! Why am I sharing this? I am sharing this because if my sharing this gives one person strength or helps one person to understand that they aren't alone, then this post was worth gold to me!
Looking back and analyzing everything, I learned some key things:
1) I am loved by God
2) God has a purpose for my life and it is my job to listen to that purpose
3) I am a sinner by nature but I also have a heart of gold
4) I have experienced horrific things in my life to enable me to be able to understand others in same situations and to help them
5) God made me, so I am not a mistake! God doesn't make mistakes
6) Actions are louder than words
7) People will knock you down to try to build themselves up, don't lower yourself to that level. Build others up, even if it means bringing yourself down
8) Miracles happen on a daily basis, You just have to have your eyes open.
9) I don't only pray on Sundays and I don't only pray in church. I pray in my car, bathroom, anywhere and everywhere. I talk to God and my loved ones in Heaven as if they are sitting beside me.
10) My faith belief is that we should love one another unconditionally and try to understand that we all are flawed and sinful. I do not try to push my beliefs or faith on others. I do try to love others, no matter what. Am I always successful, no because I am sinful! I do try to catch myself and stop doing it though.
11) Be yourself because those who truly love you, won't care. If they love you for someone other than yourself, then they aren't truly loving you! They are loving the mask!
12) Others being mean to you is a reflection of them, not you!
IF JESUS WAS TO COME BACK TO EARTH
If Jesus was to come back to Earth, do you think he would be in churches???? I don't think so!!!!! He would be showing love to those needing the most love and those hurting the most. He would be in places that majorities of people need saved or need to learn what love is.
I pray that God was with me while writing this! I pray that love spreads throughout the word! I pray that more people start understanding that we are all sinners and try to be loving towards each other! I pray that the homeless find shelter, the hungry find food, the sick are healed, the weary are given rest and that people join hands to take a stand together and demonstrate love! My favorite movie is PAY IT FORWARD! Do for others without expecting anything in return! Do for others because you want to, because seeing someone hurt breaks your heart!
May you spread love throughout the world
Kimfitnesschic xoxo
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